> 222: Rundown.

5/1/2025 9:40 PM

Remember those latest purchases I mentioned last blogpost? Well. It’s time for me to talk about them. And by them I mean just the boox. Because I’m far more xcited about the boox. c|:)

I haven't axually finished reading full, original novels before <--(usually too broke, too busy, and too obsessed with another piece of media to read one before) so I've started myself with some easier reading material. Of which inc100d short story collexions and children's boox..

Two short story collexions by Neil Gaiman! I’ve already finished reading the entirety of Fragile Things, and will eventually take on Smoke and Mirrors. So far I've skimmed the introduxion of it and am very xcited to read Virus. Because it seems to be computer related...

Huge fan of Fragile Things, by the way. Really huge fan. I think I finished it in just a week or perhaps a few days more, because it was just that fun to read. (And that reading in general is just really fucking awesome.)

In order, my favorites in it have to be:

• October in the Chair: I thought the personification of the months was neat, and so was the story-in-a-story format (however you call it..)! October's story was dark, but I loved it, and I love Dearly and Runt, since I'm starting to realize that I have some kind of affinity for tragedies and outcasted characters with sad fates.. (It's unfair, how the world doesn't always let dreams come true, even when everything else available is bleak. And it’s interesting, how one can find companionship in the strangest of places.)
• The Facts in The Case of The Departure of Miss Finch: I like how reality isn't so clearly defined in this story, further enforced by the fact that, probably no one will believe what the protagonist and his friends went through. And I think Miss Finch is so fun. She's presented as weird and offputting, but I think she's so c001. Loved the ending. Her ending, specifically. People might have been traumatized, but she seemed to have fun. Good for her!
• The Fairy Reel + Instructions: Fun little reads. Whimsical and invokes my curiosity. Also reminds me of a certain character who believes in fairies. c}:)

Speaking of said character... I also got.....

Peter Pan. Because... Why not. c|x)

Right now, I’m on Chapter 3, and I like it so far. I don’t have a very discernable reason for why yet, all I know is that I like it. It’s pretty childlike, and makes me feel like a child in return. It’s fun. I also really like simply having it. Because of Tavros. Yeah..

I wish I was able to get a copy of Dracula (since I have axually read a few chapters of it, I just need to reread and finish the damn thing), but in the bookstores I browsed, it wasn't available!! c|:( Maybe they only sell it during Halloween. What a shame...

Will be back with more of my thoughts on Smoke and Mirrors and Peter Pan eventually. In the meantime, this will suffice. ^_^

Current mood:	Wonderful!
Listening to:	The entire discography of Kairikibear..

5/1/2025 9:55 PM

4/1/2025 ??:?? AM

A bit late to the festivities, but it's 2025!! Yay!! Happy late new year!

I was gone for a couple of days to go celebrate Christmas and the new year through travelling, and decided to leave my laptop behind, but I'm here now! And I now have a decent amount of things to talk about. Hell yeah.

Didn't cross any international borders (that shit's just too xpensive right now) but we did go to one of our country's bigger cities. Of which I will not name for privacy reasons. But it did grant me axcess to a lot of c001 stu not usually available to me. Such as:

• Kickass hotels with awesome rooms. The suite we stayed in was great, and suprisingly very comfortable to live in despite the lack of space!! Did find the bathroom very intriguing though. Has both a shower and a bath tub (not that I'm complaining)... Two fucking doors. What bathroom needs two doors? That's genuinely so interesting. People can live like this? c|:o
• Buffets!! I'm not much of a big eater but, man, I love buffets. So much nice food to choose from. And good desserts. Like cheesecake and fruits. The variety of choices in buets are always intimidating to me at first, but that hardly matters when food is in the equation.
• Shopping.. Oh my god I love shopping. The things in bigger cities seem to always be so much c001er than the ones back home. I managed to snatch myself some axcessories (a necklace and body jewelry), a sweater, two graphic shirts, a leather purse, and three boox.
• And iceskating. I sucked so bad at it due to skill issues and equipment issues (they didn’t have skates my size..) but I had so much fun.

I’ll talk about my latest purchases later, and in a different blogpost. Because, while I’m really xcited about my new boox, I also feel like thinking about how my 2024 went..

I don’t think that there’s much to say about 2024. Nothing too life-changing or xtremely notable happened. Just an average year for an average person. And I’m satisfied with that. c|:)

Let’s see..

• I found out that I was transgender.. Not sure about transitioning nor personally coming out to close family and friends yet, and am dealing with internalized transphobia aimed towards myself, but I’ll figure it out.. vv
• Made a few impulsive decisions, especially regarding my academics, and of which I’ve come to regret just a tiny bit... But are also proving itself to have been very reasonable choices, seeing that I’m less stressed now. Good for me. (My dumbass is going back to being homesch001ed. At least for now.) (I don’t think I’m able to handle having people around me almost 24/7. Or maybe I can and people-- classmates and teachers --should just xpect less of me...! Fucked up.)
• Started taking shit a bit more seriously, and am now trying to build up portfolios and developing skills for any future job I might want. Not a lot of progress on this one yet, seeing how I’ve only made 2 artworx (not uploaded here) that I consider to be professional, I haven’t figured out the first chapter for this novel I’m working on, and that I’ve barely worked on my programming skills... Motivation is hard to come by, but I’m certainly working on it. c|:””)
• Have finally (and seriously) thought about going to therapy and even brought it up to my family. Since I have some unresolved shit still bothering me. I haven’t gone to a therapist yet (see: no space in the budget and the nagging concern that I’m being a bother. Which is ridiculous I know.. c|:””() but I’m thinking of doing so this year. God knows I need it. c|OTL
• Made a few new friends. Of which are now kind of distant and are too high-energy for me to properly keep up with... But I’m very happy to have met them. The world isn’t so lonely when I reach out and actively connect, it seems. c|x)
• Worked pretty hard the entirety of 2024. Didn’t bring about any notable changes but I like the productivity I had. Like, hell yes, 2024 me, get that fucking bread! Hoping for a productive 2025, too. ^_^
• Was able to dress more like how I want to. That is to say, I got gifted two dark (one black, and the other a very dark purple) lipstix. My first ever dark lipstix in my whole life. So c001. <- -(Considers himself to be emo and very alternative. So this is a very xcitable thing for me.)

Aaand that’s it. A few ups, and what I’d like to think is an equal amount of downs. Like I said, an average year for an average person. I’m happy with how everything had turned out, and will try to make my 2025 just as happy if not more.

That being said, I do have a few new year resolutions.. Which I will share because I just love talking about myself, and to serve as reminders for myself.

• Lower down on carbs!! Or at least just rice. I have to worry about this so I don’t die at an early age due to shit genetix and inherited diseases. Sux, but what can I do. (Also. I think it would be fun to see how long I can go without my usual serving of rice and how healthier I might be after it.)
• Make at least 1 new friend. Officially and actively, whatever that means. Because I live like a vampire in the way I refuse to enter and actively participate in someone’s life without xplicit permission..
• Read and write more!! My laptop keyboard may be a bitch (it’s still not fixed.. c|:””() but I still have many ideas and stories I’d like to share. So I’m relying on physical boox and my iPad from now on. Whether I like it or not. (Especially since I do want to become an author of some kind in the future, or at least publish just one book/paper.)

...I’d add xercising more on that list, but... I lack the space in my home and I can’t go to gyms (would need permission, and the concept of working out nearby other people freax me out). Also I just don’t feel very passionate towards it right now. <--(Me when I make up xcuses for myself.) I’ll make sure I’ll get my required amount of xercise somehow, it’s just not something I want to focus on.. Maybe one day.

That’s it. For real this time. There’s a feeling that I won’t be able to accomplish what I want to do, or I won’t be able to do anything notable with myself, but that’s fine. I’ll just try my best this year, and if it doesn’t work out, or if I wanted to do something else all along, I still have tons of years to go through.

And so do you, whoever is reading this. Don’t pressure yourself too much, and have fun. I hope you have an amazing 2025. ^_^

Current mood:	Wonderful. Lovely, even.
Listening to:	..The entirety of MARETU’s discography

4/1/2025 11:09 AM

23/11/2024 8:12 PM

I’ve always been under the transgender umbrella, often using terms like.. nonbinary, multigender, pangender, to describe myself. But that doesn’t feel right anymore.

As in… I’m 100% sure I’m transgender. A transgender boy. FtM. One gender. Masculine. Very much so. I don’t know. This feels like a crazy revelation to have, despite it.. really not being one.

I’ve known that I was somewhere under the transgender umbrella ever since I was six years of age (possibly earlier), so I’m not sad, mad, nor even surprised about it. I don’t feel very strongly about it at all, other than occasional bouts of gender euphoria.

I’m just xtremely confused. What am I even supposed to do now… Other than start going by he/him online and wear pants more often. I can’t afford chest binders, let alone HRT… I do indeed want to transition, but this is a very strange circumstance I’ve found myself in…

…Like. How am I even going to come out. I got away with coming out as nonbinary and multigender to my friends, but that’s because I still considered myself a girl in some manner, allowing them to do the same. Now I’m not a girl. At all. That’s crazy….!! “>_>

Anyway. Yes. I go by he/him pronouns now. Only he/him. And am a guy. Only a (robot) (angel) guy. Which is pretty fun.

I’d win the award for being the most confused transgender boy, I think. c|:’) Short blog for today, but that really is all. Thanx for reading. ^_^

Current mood:	Positively confused…
Listening to:	Oh No, We Won’t Go - Jamface

23/11/2024 8:27 PM

31/10/2024 10:?? PM

Recently, I’ve gotten sick of ANGEL NUMBER 222’s lack of axcessibility, especiolly regarding the (although dearly beloved) low-contrast color scheme..

So, I’m making a new layout. c|:D Here’s what it 100x like so far!

I have a lot of plans for this thing, and am also working on my Muse Ariadne backlog and descriptions for my October art, and will therefore take me a while to finish, so allow me to talk about what I’ll be doing before I disappear for another few weex. c|x”)

Regarding funxionality:

• iframes: I’m going back to my iframe layout ways!! In order to save storage space + just overall make my life easier.. iframe layouts are so much more easier to code and design. You must understand.
• Theme switcher/Other interactive elements: Since I’m dedicating more of my time to learning Javascript now, I’m definitely adding a few Javascript features as practice/for fun. Such as a c001 theme-switcher (would ideally have 3 themes, but due to my various skill issues, I will probably only make a dark mode to accompany the original layout..) and.. whatever the hell else I think of!

Regarding the design:

• Inspiration:
  • Do you guys remember my old layout. The black, b100, and cyan one with clip-paths. This new layout is somehow inspired by that, as well as a myriad of other website’s layouts..
  • Older sites: ..Well, of course I used 2000s-2010s webdesign as inspiration. I’m a Neocities webmaster. ^_^ But also, I just really truly do like how they 100k. They may not be very axcessible, but that doesn’t mean my site has to be the xact same. (I also have other thoughts regarding 2000s-2010s webdesign and graphic design as a whole, but thats for another day, and another blogpost!)
• Dark mode: The aforementioned dark mode.. Here’s a quick mock-up for it! Yes it is Tavros-themed. Wow. How did you know. c}:) Anyway. Yeah. This isn’t the final color-scheme, as I’m planning to use other shades of bronze and orange, and black for Nitram-related self-indulgence to increase the contrast. There’s not much else to say.
  

Additional plans:

• Separating the Gallery and Library into different pages: For the sake of organization…
• New shrines: Once I finish that Aradia shrine, and remember to work on that Portal shrine in my files, I am abso100tely making more shrines. I’m thinking of a few more Homestuck ones (Jake English, perhaps one or two dedicated to my BROTPs and OTPs..) and one dedicated to my hobbies. (Art!! Graphic design!! Fuck yes.)

Possibilities:

• RSS feed
• New domain name: As well as a site name change. This is very low priority, though.. Because I’m xtremely broke and unable to come up with good domain/site names. >_>
  • Not planning to move hosts, though! I’m staying here until I learn how different webhosts work and when I get the nerve to break off. (Will probably not happen for years…)

All in all, everything’s coming along nicely, and I’ve made a lot of improvement since then. Wow. Patting myself on the back right now.

That’s all. Thank you for reading. ^_^

Current mood:	Surprisingly productive..!
Listening to:	Lights Out - Royal Blue

5/11/2024 6:54 AM

20/7/2024 9:02 PM

Hello everyone!! Yesterday was my birthday. c|:) And I had a pretty good day!!

I mostly just slacked off the entire morning + afternoon.. And also got myself some Flightrising dragons that shared the same birthday as me! Because I’m very much insane about dragons. Go check them out here. c|:) (I’m pretty sure I spent 47k treasure and 20 gems in total… Not even counting the apparel and skin/axcents I might buy to dress them up… Haha..) (It’s ok. I still managed to stay within my huge budget. And I deserve it. vv)

My birthday cake was delivered somewhere during the afternoon! Tasted great. I don’t have a photo and it fell down on the fucking ground (while in the box) on the way home but you know. I stay silly. It tasted great. I love chocolate cheesecake. c|x)

After that.. Me and my family went out to eat at a Korean BBQ place! It was similarly great!! Ate lots of good meat, appetizers, and also salmon and tuna sushi. Have some photos!!

There’s not much else to say about this. My favorite cousin was there with me, being a nuisance as usual, and playing on their tablet, set to a very audible volume. Sometimes even screaming and laughing. It was horrible. The things I tolerate for my family… vv <—(Acting like he wasn’t laughing with them…) Shout out to my dumbass cousin!!! c|:D

We went home right after, and I bragged to all of my friends about it. Like how I’m bragging to the internet about it. c|:3 I got to talk a lot with my BFF, too.. One of the best parts of my day. My BFF means the world to me! c|:)

As for gifts… I got this c001 sugar skull/calvera jewelry set from a family member!! I love it so much. Thank you world for skeletons.

Other than that…. I got some wonderfully made digital stuff sent by my other friends, a whole giftbox that’s yet to be delivered, and a damn lot of heartfelt birthday wishes. I’m really grateful!! c|:D Thank you everyone. c|x)

I made it another year, and I can’t be more glad that I did. Happy birthday, me!! c|:)

Current mood:	Satisfied!
Listening to:	Tourniquet - Evanescence

20/7/2024 9:37 PM

16/7/2024 10:46 PM

Hello again everyone!! It’s my month and almost my birthday! (July 19!) I’m taking it easy, so I don’t axually have anything c001 or important to talk about.. As always. >> I guess this’ll just be an xtended and more detailed status update about the inconsequential shit I’m doing. Oh well.

Here are two things I’m working on!! First off is a post canon Jake and Tavros (a very underrated platonic and romantic pair) fanfic, and, despite the fact that its 90% dialogue, I’m having a lot of fun!! I’m not one to give away a lot of spoilers, but, since I’m struggling bored, have a screenshot!!!:

As you can clearly see. My skill in writing cannot be outmatched. c|:) <—(Coping with the fact that he fucking sux at making epilogue shit up…) c|:’) 100king back on it, I should really go back and edit some of Jake’s dialogue..! Since, surprisingly, I don’t know the guy that much! Unbelievable, right?! c|:”0

And a shrine for my other favorite troll, Aradia Megido! I’m pretty much done with her page’s design and layout, I just have to.. Axually write her. And read some roleplaying and writing guides before that… You know. For the same reason as my previous predicament. c|x””)

I took some inspiration from Flightrising’s layout and an Indiana Jones fansite.. I’m really happy with it so far. c|:D

And!! Speaking of Flightrising!! I’ve been playing it a lot lately! I’ve been reworking the lore for my clan and just my clan in general. c|:P I have most of it written down on this forum post! (General gist is.. Whoa.. Cyberpunk dystopia dragons. And labor unions acting as rebellions… c|:0)

Just like any other writing project of mine.. It’s barely finished… But I’m working on it!! c|:””D Just.. very very slowly. I have finished Cyprie’s bio though. I’m pretty proud of it! You should check her out if you like c001 rebellious dragons. c|:)

I’m also finally active again on Pokefarm! I’m on Team Breakneck Blitz (in other terms, Team Normal type..) this month and have been hatching Eevee eggs repeatedly for the last few days!! Without getting any shinies, albinos, or melans!! Fuck!!! c|:””)

The breeding pair I’m using this time (an Eevee and a Ditto) also really sux.. Only 46% breeding chance.. And I just used up all of my shelter adoptions… I’m practically dying on the battlefield out here..! c|:”( (I have a Jolteon I could use instead of the Ditto, but she’s just level 11 and it’s going to take too long leveling her up to 60.. Man.. c|OTL)

Lastly.. I’m thinking of getting back in touch with some old friends of mine. Because sch001’s still out and I’m lonely. c|:”( Also because I have a strange inability to make new friends. Like holy shit. I don’t know how the fuck younger me did it.. What happened. When and where did I go wrong… (I’ll fix this… Eventually. >>)

Anyway. Yeah. That’s it.. I’ve just been a huge nerd this entire month. c|8’) <—(Acting as if he isn’t one every other month..)

I’m having fun, though!! And I hope everyone else does too!! Thank you for reading my rambling!! ^^

Current mood:	Xcited!! Yaay!!
Listening to:	Dizzy Paranoia Girl - VocaloKAT

16/7/2024 11:32 PM

6/6/2024 9:11 PM

After a lot of hard work and saving… It’s here!! It’s finally here!! My first ever phone!!! c|:D

It’s a Galaxy Z Flip5! c|:) With 256GB of storage and in the cream color. (I would’ve gotten it in graphite or b100 but they weren’t available at the price I wanted….) I love it!! ^^ c|:D

This thing is like.. maybe around 1,000+ dollars. Ha… I’m not xactly sure how I managed to afford this thing.. >> Usually I’m broke as fuck. All I know is that one of my family members found a good installment plan somewhere, and somehow, so far, I’m able to pay off this thing monthly!! 0_0 Good for me.

My original plan was to get an axual flip phone for my first ever phone (specifically the Samsung Fold 2) because of how cheap they are and their keypads (I love love love keypads and keyboards) (I love typing!! I love buttons), but I’m not complaining!! I’m very grateful. c|:3

Anyways, I got it a good case (black one w/ strap so I can wear it like a crossbody bag), decorated said case with some butterfly stickers, and made my wallpapers skeleton art I found on Pinterest!! Hell yeah. (Very c001 art, by the way. If anyone knows who made it, tell me…)

I took these photos using my very shitty and old iPad camera. It.. The quality sucks. It’s so bad. c|x”( But it’s ok!! It’s one of the reasons why I got this new phone. The camera quality on this Z Flip is so much better, and the colors are very vibrant (just how I like it). I think I’ll use it to take all of my photos from now on. c|:) Here are some screenshots of my cover, lock, and home screens.

Once I get the hang of widgets, it’ll 100k a lot more intricate. And more Tavros-ified.. Maybe a lot more b100, too. Because I’m just like that. c|:3

While I.. don’t really know what to do with it yet (other than text and customize) since I’ve never had this much storage before, I really like this phone!! It’s so fun, I love foldable devices (I’m so intrigued by the flexible glass..) and I love how compact it is!! Both in the hardware and software way. It’s just so c001 how I can fit it in my pocket, and also not have to open it to axcess basic stuff. Because I can just use the cover screen!!! ^^

The volume is really nice as well, and, compared to my other two devices (my beloved iPad and laptop) I can axually play games on it!! So awesome!! So c001!! c|xD

Other than photo-taking and texting, I’m planning to use this phone for its hotspot and load (incase of emergencies, since my iPad doesn’t have a SIM card..), and overall, fun! c|:) Of which just means games and selfies to me. I’m a very simple guy.

...In retrospect. Getting the axual flip phone would’ve been a much wiser option. Especially regarding my finances and needs. But life’s too short for that!!

Hedonism ftw. I love my awesome Z Flip5.

Current mood:	Xtatic!!! c|:D
Listening to:	FANSERVICE - MAILPUP

6/6/2024 9:52 PM

18/5/2024 9:21 PM

Oh my god!! It’s been so long since I’ve written anything!! I miss you guys!! Whats up!! How are you!! Personally I’m doing xcellent!! 100k at this Tavros shrine layout I’m working on!!

^{It’s based off of Myspace.. Aradia will have her own profile too, of course!!}

It’s almost done ready to be uploaded to the internet but I’m stuck writing the comments for his friends.. I have never written Gamzee before and it shows. Help me!! c|:”’(

I still have to work on the more meta parts of the shrine (such as why I enjoy him and more comments about his character over the story) and some additional graphix (like Fiduspawn stamps..) to spice it up a bit, but once I get these damn comments done, you guys will be able to witness the shrine in it’s somewhat unfinished yet very beautiful (and obsessive) glory..

Also.. I really wanted to make his layout fairy-themed (in canon, he has it for his Trollian wallpaper!!) but I couldn’t figure out a way to make it work.. c|:”( So I went for Fiduspawn instead!! Maybe other trolls like to contact him for Fiduspawn tips or battles. It would make sense since he’s very good at it. (Nevertheless I will try sneaking in a fairy in some way. As a treat to him for being The Character Ever..)

^{Somewhat related..: I heard that theres a new Broadwaystuck Tavros (apprehensiveTrainer). I listened to the new song, and then went crazy for the next 3 hours. Can't wait for more. c|x)}

It makes me so happy to be back coding again. I missed you, Visual Studio Code. I missed you, my awesome personal website.. Never shall we be apart again.. c|x’’0

Regarding other matters, I’ve been alright! (My real life friends made me normal keep me in check.) I’m not that stressed out anymore, and will even be getting a phone next month!! Yay!! I’m so xcited!! c|:D (My first ever phone.. I will treat it well. ^.^)

I don’t have anything else to say, other than I have an event to attend next week. Going to be showing off my academic achievements. Hell yes. Fuck yes. c|x)

Current mood:	Xtatic!! Let's go Nitram Nation!!
Listening to:	THE FUCKDEST JAMS Side A - DJ Snaggletoof/Halley Labs

18/5/2024 9:33 PM