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Homestuck

• tHE IDIOTIC THING ABOUT TROLLIAN IS, / iF YOU USE IT TO TROLL PEOPLE, i THINK YOU ARE JUST AS LIKELY TO GET TROLLED YOURSELF, / mAYBE EVEN MORE BADLY,
• aND i'M CURIOUS, / bECAUSE THE ONLY TIME i EVER HAD FUN PLAYING THIS GAME WAS WHEN i WAS ASLEEP,
• iT'S THE CLASS i THINK IS MOST FUN, aND, bATTLE SKILL IS NOT ALL THERE IS, / tO BEING A GREAT ADVENTURER,
• i'LL TAKE MY CHANCES, yOU JERK!
• oNE THING i THINK i'M GOOD AT THAT PEOPLE UNDERESTIMATE, / iS MAKING NEW FRIENDS, wHO DON'T KNOW MY FLAWS YET, }:)
• i LOVE MAGIC, i'M SO GLAD IT'S REAL,
• yOU CAN BELIEVE WHATEVER YOU LIKE, / bELIEVING, aS ALWAYS, iS HALF THE BATTLE, wHEN IT COMES TO MAKING THINGS MARGINALLY LESS FAKE, / bUT THE FACT, tHAT i PERSONALLY BUILT THIS ARMY, mYSELF, iS GOING TO BE A *FACT*, / wHETHER YOU DECIDE TO BELIEVE IN IT, oR NOT! / }:D

Paradox Space

• i GOT EVERYONE INTO THIS, / i’LL GET US OUT,
• i APOLOGIZE FOR, uH, / lITERALLY EVERYTHING,
  

Headcanons

• Transfeminine and she/her pronouns..
• Her favorite colors are purple and green.
• She wins aaall of the Fiduspawn tournaments.
• Past flushcrush on Pupa Pan. Does she want to be him or does she want him? Haha. Both.
• STEM student. No one can convince me otherwise.
• ARATAV, JAKETAV, AND ARAJAKETAV BROTPS FTW!!!

Theories..

• Gender nonconforming in the troll way. Is either unlabeled or some flavor of nonbinary.

As introduced in canon:

Your name is TAVROS NITRAM.

You are known to be heavily arrested by FAIRY TALES AND FANTASY STORIES. You have an acute ability to COMMUNE WITH THE MANY CREATURES OF ALTERNIA, a skill you have utilized to CAPTURE AND TRAIN a great many. They are all your friends, as well as your warriors, which you pit in battle through a variety of related CARD AND ROLE PLAYING GAMES. You used to engage in various forms of MORE EXTREME ROLEPLAYING with some of your other friends before you had an accident.

You like to engage in the noble practice of ALTERNIAN SLAM POETRY, possibly the oldest, most revered, and certainly freshest artform in your planet's rich history. You have a profound fascination with the concept of FLIGHT, and all lore surrounding the topic. You believe in FAIRIES, even though they AREN'T REAL.

Your trolltag is adiosToreador you uHH, sPEAK IN A SORT OF, uHH, fALTERING MANNER,

As introduced in my words:

Tavros Nitram is one of the twelve Beta trolls in Homestuck, and ax as one of the comic's many side characters. She is a bronzeb100d, a Prospit dreamer, and the one and only Page of Breath.

When we first see Tavros in the comic as adiosToreador trolling Dave Strider, we can see that she abso100tely sux at trolling. And being a troll in general...

Tavros, due to her softer upbringing and demeanor, doesn't conform to Alternian norms and ideals, nor does she wish to. She is far more friendly and less hostile when compared to the rest of her friends, and this non-conformity xtends to her interests as well, as she plas games for girls, card games for nerds, and consume media for children.

At her core, Tavros is very much an outlier and the runt of the group. She's the complete opposite of Alternia’s “heartless, greater-good-focused, subservient, upstanding troll” ideal, and is instead the passionate, somewhat self-interested, stubborn, socially awkward geek. Does she have any intent on changing? No! And that’s her best trait.

But life as an outlier is not easy, as many people do want her to change. Tavros is frequently pressured to act different, think different, and to like different things. To follow what people see as suxcess and to prevent her from suxceeding in her own way.

Thanx to that, Tavros has a bit of an inferiority complex. Even if she doesn’t consistently push herself to change for the “better”, it’s clear that she has some serious self-esteem issues, shown through several instances of putting herself down and considering herself as something lesser.

Tavros herself and her peers misdiagnose her issues as a lack of self-confidence— despite her being very confident in herself and her beliefs —and even though it’s out of good intentions, it’s just not the case. She simply can’t see her true self-worth unless trusted friends like Aradia Megido, point it out to her.

To cope with her issues, Tavros usually turns to fleeing from situations and escapism, often sleeping her worries away.

It’s ok though. She's still c001 as fuck. <—(Truth!)

Role in the narrative

As mentioned previously, Tavros is a side character, who, regarding roles, is the outlier, runt, and socially awkward geek. All in that order.

Tavros is quite the contrarian, even if she doesn't intend to be such. She's different from the rest— stubborn when bossed around, suxceeds when people xpect her to fail, and unfortunately fails when people xpect her to suxceed. But being such a contrarian in a comic such as Homestuck only earns her a small spot in the sidelines, lack of control in her own life, and ultimately, an inherently tragic fate.

To me, Tavros represents childhood and the innocence and dreams that comes with one's early years. This is seen with her association with childish things, like Fiduspawn— the troll equivalent of Pokemon, fairies, and Pupa Pan— the troll equivalent of the forever young Peter Pan. As a teenager, she obviously shows this in her behavior as well. She can be ignorant and naive to what's tr001y going on, incredibly forgiving even when it comes to her own murder, and stubborn and snarky when she can't get what she wants. Additionally, Tavros is often pushed into a helpless role by the narrative, rendered powerless against people with greater psychic and/or physical abilities irregardless if she stands up for herself or not.

It starts with Tavros's mere xistence paving the way for a revenge cycle and her requests for help going unheard and ignored. Then she's pressured into skipping her own quests, amputated in her sleep, provoked into a fight that leads to her death, and manipulated and forced to go along with plans she doesn't agree with being a part of. Tavros is very consistently shown to lack agency and control, and, through this, begins to lose her own relevance as she is turned into the victim, accomplice, and pawn for others to use.

Even if it's not shown as such in canon, because of everything thats happened to her and everything she wasn't able to do, Tavros becomes a tragedy. When the universe only axcepts the most adaptable, toughest, and wisest characters, Tavros's childlike behavior is considered unaxceptable, and she is treated as such. If Homestuck is considered a story of growing up, alongside its main themes, then Tavros is the childhood everyone has to leave behind and move on from when they turn older.

Although— even if Tavros’s good nature and non-conformity goes unrewarded and punished by the narrative —in one way or another, she is still satisfied with where she's ended up and who she tr001y is. Tavros shows that being yourself despite what other people xpect of you, is the best thing you can do for yourself, and that it’s very much its own reward. She is at her best when she's awkward, cringe, and overly genuine, and at her worst when she pushes herself to be someone she knows she is not.

And I think that’s awesome as fuck. Like, hell yeah, Tavros, you do you! c|:D

Because. Because there’s something seriously wrong with me. c|x’) c|:’)

Joking!! (Maybe.)

I know that Tavros isn’t very important to the story. I know that she doesn't do much. Personality wise, she's basic as fuck. But, for many reasons, from here on out separated into smaller sexions in order to keep myself sane and organized, I don’t care. c|:)

Appreciation

One of these reasons are because… I simply find Tavros Nitram to be an awesome person, because, well.. She's herself! Niche games and fandoms have always been my respite in the big, overwhelming world we live in, and I love the fact that Tavros thinx the same way.

Tavros is very open about her nerdy interests and belief in childish things like fairies or Pupa Pan, and she does things, simply because she loves them! It’s kind of hedonistic, maybe even selfish, but that’s xactly the point. It’s so very inspiring to me. c|:)

I used to be a huge people pleaser! I used to keep my interests a secret!! I used to get stuck on stupid minor inconveniences and let them ruin my whole day!!! It was all so very bad for me. To see Tavros do the xact opposite, to choose to not conform, no matter what bullshit the comic threw at her was fucking awesome.

It was a breath of fresh air. Who knew you could just do that. I certainly didn’t. I wanted to do that, and not be affected by others’ comments. And now I’m here, with my own website. Wow! Tavros Nitram is an important contribution to my personal development!!

Also, seeing her be stereotypically cringe and a bitch to others is very empowering. I want to empower her. She should be more annoying and mean. It won’t fix her or me but you know. As a treat. c}:D

Relatability

Ha ha ha. Remember when I said I was joking? No I wasn’t. I was being for real..! Tavros just happens to be xtremely relatable to me. Tavros is awkward, considered cringe, a lover of escapism and fantasy, and is especially outcasted by her peers, save for only a few people. She's just like me fr. c|x””)

Other than the traits that I share with her, and celebrate at the same time.. Um. There is definitely some psychological shit going on. Fucked up.

I'm one of those people that don’t remember a large part of their early childhood— in my case, ages 1-6 (or 7, or 8, or 9....) —either due to horrible memory or some kind of repression. All that I can recall now is that I've gone through shit that kixtarted the downfall of my social skills and social life as a whole, and that I will feel a horrible urge to protect and defend those who are currently going through similar things. While crying, kicking, and screaming at the same time. Yeah. c|O(-(

Seeing Tavros get belittled and hurt onscreen almost felt like reliving what I went through.. Just in third person. Of course, I didn't live Tavros's entire life, but the pain was there, and it was scarily similar enough for me to want to stop things from happening to her. I see a lot of myself in her.

So I pay xtra attention to her story. I draw art, write fanfixion, both centered around her in one way or another. I give her all of the good fortune and happy endings that canon didn't give her. She deserves it. She really, really, does. c|OTL (Don't worry about me, I'm just coping...)

There will be no other character like Tavros Nitram. She's made one hell of an impact in my life, and I'm glad that she xists. c}:)

(..That being said, wherever she is in canon and in fanworx, I hope that she's happy. Narrative, please, for the love of god, let her be happy. c|x”()

Playlist

Fanfixion

• Aquatic Acquiescence
• All Fun and Games: A Team Charge Compilation
• bETTER LATE THAN NEVER,

Fanart

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Misc...

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