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Tavros Nitram

Canon

Screen Name	adiosToreador
Sign	Taurus, Sign of The Unfledged
Title	Page of Breath
Relations	The Summoner - Ancestor Tinkerbull - Lusus Rufioh Nitrm - Dancestor
Strife Specibus	Lancekind

Quotes

Homestuck

tHE IDIOTIC THING ABOUT TROLLIAN IS, / iF YOU USE IT TO TROLL PEOPLE, i THINK YOU ARE JUST AS LIKELY TO GET TROLLED YOURSELF, / mAYBE EVEN MORE BADLY,
aND i'M CURIOUS, / bECAUSE THE ONLY TIME i EVER HAD FUN PLAYING THIS GAME WAS WHEN i WAS ASLEEP,
iT'S THE CLASS i THINK IS MOST FUN, aND, bATTLE SKILL IS NOT ALL THERE IS, / tO BEING A GREAT ADVENTURER,
i'LL TAKE MY CHANCES, yOU JERK!
oNE THING i THINK i'M GOOD AT THAT PEOPLE UNDERESTIMATE, / iS MAKING NEW FRIENDS, wHO DON'T KNOW MY FLAWS YET, }:)
i LOVE MAGIC, i'M SO GLAD IT'S REAL,
yOU CAN BELIEVE WHATEVER YOU LIKE, / bELIEVING, aS ALWAYS, iS HALF THE BATTLE, wHEN IT COMES TO MAKING THINGS MARGINALLY LESS FAKE, / bUT THE FACT, tHAT i PERSONALLY BUILT THIS ARMY, mYSELF, iS GOING TO BE A *FACT*, / wHETHER YOU DECIDE TO BELIEVE IN IT, oR NOT! / }:D

Paradox Space

Non-Canon

Headcanons

ARATAV, JAKETAV, AND ARAJAKETAV BROTPS FTW!!!
His favorite colors are purple and green.
He wins aaall of the Fiduspawn tournaments.
Past flushcrush on Pupa Pan. Does he want to be him or does he want him? Haha. Both.
STEM student. No one can convince me otherwise.

Theories..

Definitely somewhere on the aro spectrum.
Gender nonconforming in the troll way. Maybe trans?

Who is Tavros Nitram?

As he's introduced in canon:

Your name is TAVROS NITRAM.

You are known to be heavily arrested by FAIRY TALES AND FANTASY STORIES. You have an acute ability to COMMUNE WITH THE MANY CREATURES OF ALTERNIA, a skill you have utilized to CAPTURE AND TRAIN a great many. They are all your friends, as well as your warriors, which you pit in battle through a variety of related CARD AND ROLE PLAYING GAMES. You used to engage in various forms of MORE EXTREME ROLEPLAYING with some of your other friends before you had an accident.

You like to engage in the noble practice of ALTERNIAN SLAM POETRY, possibly the oldest, most revered, and certainly freshest artform in your planet's rich history. You have a profound fascination with the concept of FLIGHT, and all lore surrounding the topic. You believe in FAIRIES, even though they AREN'T REAL.

Your trolltag is adiosToreador you uHH, sPEAK IN A SORT OF, uHH, fALTERING MANNER,

As he's introduced in my words:

Tavros Nitram is one of the twelve Beta trolls in Homestuck, and ax as one of the comic's many side characters.

When we first see Tavros in the comic as adiosToreador trolling Dave Strider, we can see that he abso100tely sux at trolling. And being a troll in general. He is far more friendly, respectful, and less hostile than the rest of his friends, leading to him being considered naive, a wimp, coward, and/or useless piece of shit..!

Tavros doesn't conform to other Alternian xpectations either, as he often plays fatal games for girls, card games for nerds, and watches shows for children, purely for the passion he has for it! He’s a socially awkward geek, clearly passionate and genuine about his “childish” and “unrealistic” interests, and is usually motivated out of pure appreciation and self-interest, even if other people’s words make him falter. c|:D

Of course, Tavros isn’t morally or behaviorally perfect. He's frequently wrong about many things, but he preaches them like they're true anyway, often only stopped by others correcting him. He can be flighty, irresponsible, and a bit of a cunt. He can be mean and snarky, especially to people who did bad shit to him. Just like any other teenager!

Due to Tavros's bullheadedness (pun intended) and overall personality, he has a tendency to stick to what he believes is right or good for him. To the dismay of many of his concerned and/or annoyed friends..

Additionally, Tavros is said (by himself and his friends) to have problems with his self-confidence, and uses an imaginary friend called Rufio to help himself.. But honestly, it 100x like he lax self-esteem more than anything!! c|:( Tavros is confident in himself and his beliefs, yet doesn’t see his true self-worth unless trusted friends like Aradia Megido point it out to him.

Tavros has a bit of an inferiority complex, and follows and admires the words of those supposedly superior to him. Not xactly out of self-loathing, rather out of the fact that he stays true in his appreciation and that.. this behavior’s just taught to him. Alternia am I right!!!

Narrative role and relevance

To put everything simply, Tavros is a side character! He’s no way a protagonist, and very much not the kind of character to do important and life-changing things on purpose nor with a very strong will and motivation. He just does what he wants when he can. He’s just a guy. A random-ass dude. c|:)

..But everyone else isn’t. Tavros’s friends all have things going on for them, a destiny to fulfill, a legacy they want to inherit, standards they have to meet, and he just doesn’t feel the need to do the same. So xpectations and standards are placed onto him. His interests get seen as embarrassing and stupid, he gets seen as embarrassing and stupid, and he becomes the runt of the pack. Tavros is everything but worthy and useful.

Therefore, Tavros is forcefully made important. But not as an individual, rather as a t001 to help move the plot forward. He’s just another part of the genetic sequence. A poor soul that got swept up in this mess. A pawn to control. Tavros Nitram has no agency. Like. At fucking all…

Tavros unknowingly helps to kixtart his team’s session (and contribute to the xistence of Doctor Scratch) by FLARPing and getting involved with the Scourge Sisters, becoming paralyzed from being mind controlled by Vriska Serket to jump off a cliff after neither Terezi Pyrope or Aradia responded to his texts for help. This, in turn, starts a revenge cycle between the four of them, with Aradia bringing ghosts to haunt Vriska, Vriska killing her, Terezi making Vriska lose an eye and arm as payback, and it goes on, and on, and on.. @_@

The only few plot-important decisions (that he truly made by himself) was when he (rightfully so) ditched Vriska and Meenah Peixes’s pirate crew to gather ghosts to fight Lord English in the pre-retcon timeline. Only to go back to being a pawn working under them. His endings (happy or otherwise) are not his own, and the majority of the other trolls only learn to tolerate him better near the end of the story. The fuck is up with that! c|:”(

At the very end of the comic, Tavros gets to have his close friends, like Aradia and Jake (post-retcon, at least), while he makes new friends in others simply from his friendly personality, and the others remain on ok terms with him. Based off the Snapchat stuff, after being turned into a sprite, I’m pretty sure he lived around Dirk and Jake on Earth C for a while (supposedly overseeing the Consort Kingdom with them), but I’m avoiding reading any of the post-canon material for now. I hope he’s happy. Narrative, please, for the love of god, let him be happy. c|x”(

Why Tavros Nitram?

Because. Because there’s something seriously wrong with me. c|x’) c|:’)

Joking!! (Maybe.)

I know that Tavros isn’t very important to the story. I know that he doesn’t do much. Personality wise, he's basic as fuck. He’s not written well, and is technically a bad character because of it. But, for many reasons, from here on out separated into smaller sexions in order to keep myself sane and organized, I don’t care. c|:)

Appreciation

One of these reasons are because… I simply find Tavros Nitram to be an awesome person, because, well. He’s himself! Niche games and fandoms have always been my respite in the big, overwhelming world we live in, and I love the fact that Tavros thinx the same way.

Tavros is very open about his nerdy interests and belief in childish things like fairies or Pupa Pan, and tends to be open about a lot of things! He does things, simply because he loves them! It’s kind of hedonistic, maybe even selfish, but that’s xactly the point. It’s so very inspiring to me. c|:)

I used to be a huge people pleaser! I used to keep my interests a secret!! I used to get stuck on stupid minor inconveniences and let them ruin my whole day!!! It was all so very bad for me. To see Tavros do the xact opposite, to choose to not conform, no matter what bullshit the comic threw at him… was fucking awesome.

It was a breath of fresh air. Who knew you could just do that. I certainly didn’t. I wanted to do that, and not be affected by others’ comments. And now I’m here, with my own website. Wow! Tavros Nitram is an important contribution to my personal development!!

Also, seeing him be stereotypically cringe and a bitch to others is very empowering. I want to empower him. He should be more annoying and mean. It won’t fix him or me but you know. As a treat. c}:D

Relatability

Ha ha ha. Remember when I said I was joking? No I wasn’t. I was being for real..! Tavros just happens to be xtremely relatable to me. Not that the xact same things that happened to him happened to me because that shit’s impossible (and I would’ve lost my mind long ago if so..). It feels a lot more complicated than that ! c|:’)

It’s going to get personal for the rest of this sexion. Read with caution.

Click to continue reading. If you want to..

If you didn't already notice, empathy and sympathy play major parts in this.

Tavros Nitram is the runt, the inexperienced, and the unadjustable one in his groups. He is considered the most useless, no matter what talents he may have, due to his disliked personality and interests. He’s alone. When he calls, no one will be there to help. Tavros Nitram is frequently disregarded by the narrative, by fate, and the uncontrollable. He’s just like me..

I know what lacking agency feels. I know what it’s like to be the enemy or even victim of your own body and mind. I know what it’s like to try so hard, yet get nothing for it. When I see Tavros go through something more xaggerated than that, I can’t help but feel bad. I can’t help but feel like others should feel bad.

It’s fucked up, but the fact that Tavros is so shittily written resonates with me. I’ve gotten better since realizing it, but I have always felt a bit inhuman, never able to fit in or understand others and even myself. I feel so much more fixional than real. Always feeling like life is a written tragedy rather than a random series of ups-and-downs. When I see a character so similarly unreal, so uninvolved in their own life, of course I’d get attached.

I can’t say that shit to a family member, another trusted adult, or a friend. I’d be considered crazy. (I kind of am. My life isn't this sad, don't worry!!) I’ve felt alone for all this time. Who knew that there was a character so relentlessly hurt by others without a second thought just like me. I don’t want to be alone. I know what it feels like. He knows what it feels like. I don’t want him to be alone.

Too Long/Personal Didn't Read: He’s so much like me, guys… Who let them make a character that is awkward, considered cringe, a lover of escapism and fantasy, and is especially outcasted by his peers, save for only a few people. Don’t do that to me. I will never move on…! c|x’’’’0

Anyway yeah. This all lowkey freax me out. I don’t know what to do about it. I’ve never had favorite characters like Tavros Nitram before. Mostly because other writers tend to be far more competent, yes, but still..

Either way, I will never be normal about Tavros Nitram, and I'm happy that he xists because he helps me to xist. Yeah. c|:3