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Homestuck

• tHE IDIOTIC THING ABOUT TROLLIAN IS, / iF YOU USE IT TO TROLL PEOPLE, i THINK YOU ARE JUST AS LIKELY TO GET TROLLED YOURSELF, / mAYBE EVEN MORE BADLY,
• aND i'M CURIOUS, / bECAUSE THE ONLY TIME i EVER HAD FUN PLAYING THIS GAME WAS WHEN i WAS ASLEEP,
• iT'S THE CLASS i THINK IS MOST FUN, aND, bATTLE SKILL IS NOT ALL THERE IS, / tO BEING A GREAT ADVENTURER,
• i'LL TAKE MY CHANCES, yOU JERK!
• oNE THING i THINK i'M GOOD AT THAT PEOPLE UNDERESTIMATE, / iS MAKING NEW FRIENDS, wHO DON'T KNOW MY FLAWS YET, }:)
• i LOVE MAGIC, i'M SO GLAD IT'S REAL,
• yOU CAN BELIEVE WHATEVER YOU LIKE, / bELIEVING, aS ALWAYS, iS HALF THE BATTLE, wHEN IT COMES TO MAKING THINGS MARGINALLY LESS FAKE, / bUT THE FACT, tHAT i PERSONALLY BUILT THIS ARMY, mYSELF, iS GOING TO BE A *FACT*, / wHETHER YOU DECIDE TO BELIEVE IN IT, oR NOT! / }:D

Paradox Space

• i GOT EVERYONE INTO THIS, / i’LL GET US OUT,
• i APOLOGIZE FOR, uH, / lITERALLY EVERYTHING,
  

Headcanons

• Transfeminine and they/them pronouns..
• Their favorite colors are purple and green.
• They win aaall of the Fiduspawn tournaments.
• Past flushcrush on Pupa Pan. Do they want to be him or do they want him? Haha. Both.
• STEM student. No one can convince me otherwise.
• ARATAV, JAKETAV, AND ARAJAKETAV BROTPS FTW!!!

Theories..

• Gender nonconforming in the troll way. Is either unlabeled or some flavor of nonbinary.

As introduced in canon:

Your name is TAVROS NITRAM.

You are known to be heavily arrested by FAIRY TALES AND FANTASY STORIES. You have an acute ability to COMMUNE WITH THE MANY CREATURES OF ALTERNIA, a skill you have utilized to CAPTURE AND TRAIN a great many. They are all your friends, as well as your warriors, which you pit in battle through a variety of related CARD AND ROLE PLAYING GAMES. You used to engage in various forms of MORE EXTREME ROLEPLAYING with some of your other friends before you had an accident.

You like to engage in the noble practice of ALTERNIAN SLAM POETRY, possibly the oldest, most revered, and certainly freshest artform in your planet's rich history. You have a profound fascination with the concept of FLIGHT, and all lore surrounding the topic. You believe in FAIRIES, even though they AREN'T REAL.

Your trolltag isadiosToreador you uHH, sPEAK IN A SORT OF, uHH, fALTERING MANNER,

As introduced in my words:

Tavros Nitram is one of the twelve Beta trolls in Homestuck, and ax as one of the comic's many side characters. They are a bronzeb100d, a Prospit dreamer, and the one and only Page of Breath.

When we first see Tavros in the comic as adiosToreador trolling Dave Strider, we can see that they abso100tely sux at trolling. And being a troll in general...

Tavros, due to their softer upbringing and demeanor, doesn't conform to Alternian norms and ideals, nor do they wish to. They are far more friendly and less hostile when compared to the rest of their friends, and this non-conformity xtends to their interests as well, as they play games for girls, card games for nerds, and consume media for children.

At their core, Tavros is very much an outlier and the runt of the group. They're the complete opposite of Alternia’s “heartless, greater-good-focused, subservient, upstanding troll” ideal, and is instead the passionate, somewhat self-interested, stubborn, socially awkward geek. Do they have any intent on changing? No! Aand that’s their best trait.

But life as an outlier is not easy, as many people do want them to change. Tavros is frequently pressured to act different, think different, and to like different things. To follow what people see as suxcess and to prevent them from suxceeding in their own way.

Thanx to that, Tavros has a bit of an inferiority complex. Even if they don’t consistently push themself to change for the “better”, it’s clear that they have some serious self-esteem issues, shown through several instances of putting themself down and considering themself as something lesser.

Tavros themself and their peers misdiagnose their issues as a lack of self-confidence— despite them being very confident in themself and their beliefs —and even though it’s out of good intentions, it’s just not the case. They simply can’t see their true self-worth unless trusted friends like Aradia Megido, point it out to them.

To cope with their issues, Tavros usually turns to fleeing from situations and escapism, often sleeping their worries away.

It’s ok though. They're still c001 as fuck. <—(Truth!)

Role in the narrative

As mentioned previously, Tavros is a side character, who, regarding roles, is the outlier, runt, and socially awkward geek. All in that order.

Tavros is quite the contrarian, even if they don't intend to be such. They're different from the rest— stubborn when bossed around, suxceeds when people xpect them to fail, and unfortunately fails when people xpect them to suxceed. But being such a contrarian in a comic such as Homestuck only earns them a small spot in the sidelines, lack of control in their own life, and ultimately, an inherently tragic fate.

To me, Tavros represents childhood and the innocence and dreams that comes with one's early years. This is seen with their association with childish things, like Fiduspawn— the troll equivalent of Pokemon, fairies, and Pupa Pan— the troll equivalent of the forever young Peter Pan. As a teenager, they obviously show this in their behavior as well. They can be ignorant and naive to what's tr001y going on, incredibly forgiving even when it comes to their own murder, and stubborn and snarky when they can't get what they want. Additionally, Tavros is often pushed into a helpless role by the narrative, rendered powerless against people with greater psychic and/or physical abilities irregardless if they stand up for themself or not.

It starts with Tavros's mere xistence paving the way for a revenge cycle and their requests for help going unheard and ignored. Then they're pressured into skipping their own quests, amputated in their sleep, provoked into a fight that leads to their death, and manipulated and forced to go along with plans they don't agree with being a part of. Tavros is very consistently shown to lack agency and control, and, through this, begins to lose their own relevance as they are turned into the victim, accomplice, and pawn for others to use.

Even if it's not shown as such in canon, because of everything thats happened to them and everything they weren't able to do, Tavros becomes a tragedy. When the universe only axcepts the most adaptable, toughest, and wisest characters, Tavros's childlike behavior is considered unaxceptable, and they are treated as such. If Homestuck is considered a story of growing up, alongside its main themes, then Tavros is the childhood everyone has to leave behind and move on from when they turn older.

Although— even if Tavros’s good nature and non-conformity goes unrewarded and punished by the narrative —in one way or another, they are still satisfied with where they've ended up and who they tr001y are. Tavros shows that being yourself despite what other people xpect of you, is the best thing you can do for yourself, and that it’s very much its own reward. They are at their best when they're awkward, cringe, and overly genuine, and at their worst when they push themself to be someone they know they're not.

And I think that’s awesome as fuck. Like, hell yeah, Tavros, you do you! c|:D

Because. Because there’s something seriously wrong with me. c|x’) c|:’)

Joking!! (Maybe.)

I know that Tavros isn’t very important to the story. I know that they don't do much. Personality wise, they're basic as fuck. But, for many reasons, from here on out separated into smaller sexions in order to keep myself sane and organized, I don’t care. c|:)

Appreciation

One of these reasons are because… I simply find Tavros Nitram to be an awesome person, because, well.. They're themself! Niche games and fandoms have always been my respite in the big, overwhelming world we live in, and I love the fact that Tavros thinx the same way.

Tavros is very open about their nerdy interests and belief in childish things like fairies or Pupa Pan, and they do things, simply because they love them! It’s kind of hedonistic, maybe even selfish, but that’s xactly the point. It’s so very inspiring to me. c|:)

I used to be a huge people pleaser! I used to keep my interests a secret!! I used to get stuck on stupid minor inconveniences and let them ruin my whole day!!! It was all so very bad for me. To see Tavros do the xact opposite, to choose to not conform, no matter what bullshit the comic threw at them was fucking awesome.

It was a breath of fresh air. Who knew you could just do that. I certainly didn’t. I wanted to do that, and not be affected by others’ comments. And now I’m here, with my own website. Wow! Tavros Nitram is an important contribution to my personal development!!

Also, seeing them be stereotypically cringe and a bitch to others is very empowering. I want to empower them. They should be more annoying and mean. It won’t fix them or me but you know. As a treat. c}:D

Relatability

Ha ha ha. Remember when I said I was joking? No I wasn’t. I was being for real..! Tavros just happens to be xtremely relatable to me. Tavros is awkward, considered cringe, a lover of escapism and fantasy, and is especially outcasted by their peers, save for only a few people. They're just like me fr. c|x””)

Other than the traits that I share with them, and celebrate at the same time.. Um. There is definitely some psychological shit going on. Fucked up.

I'm one of those people that don’t remember a large part of their early childhood— in my case, ages 1-6 (or 7, or 8, or 9....) —either due to horrible memory or some kind of repression. All that I can recall now is that I've gone through shit that kixtarted the downfall of my social skills and social life as a whole, and that I will feel a horrible urge to protect and defend those who are currently going through similar things. While crying, kicking, and screaming at the same time. Yeah. c|O(-(

Seeing Tavros get belittled and hurt onscreen almost felt like reliving what I went through.. Just in third person. Of course, I didn't live Tavros's entire life, but the pain was there, and it was scarily similar enough for me to want to stop things from happening to them. I see a lot of myself in them.

So I pay xtra attention to their story. I draw art, write fanfixion, both centered around them in one way or another. I give them all of the good fortune and happy endings that canon didn't give them. They deserve it. They really, really, do. c|OTL (Don't worry about me, I'm just coping...)

There will be no other character like Tavros Nitram. They've made one hell of an impact in my life, and I'm glad that they xist. c}:)

(..That being said, wherever they are in canon and in fanworx, I hope that they're happy. Narrative, please, for the love of god, let them be happy. c|x”()

Playlist

Fanfixion

• Aquatic Acquiescence
• All Fun and Games: A Team Charge Compilation
• bETTER LATE THAN NEVER,

Fanart

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Misc...

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